Even the crazies hear Jesus.

I was sitting in church this morning wondering how I got this far.

I more so wondered if others saw me as “getting far” or “not far at all”. Have you ever just sat in your skin and in thought and wondered if you have moved forward or grown out of the bad habits or immaturity? I know that God knows me best and so obviously He knows of the ridiculous things I think about. Im 28 years old and this morning during worship I found myself closing my eyes and thinking about the way I view myself. I hate my body, I hate the way I come off, look, the list goes on…how far have I come? I thought as we get older we actually grow out of these thoughts? I guess not. I found myself then asking for forgiveness and asking for insight on how I really, truly view myself. These can and will be hindrances to my success in life. I am actually excited for God’s work in my life but I wonder how I can ever thank Him if Im almost 30 still thinking the way I did when I was 18. I loathe the female mind and I loathe the rat race of this world.

At the end of service…He brought me back to a good place. It was profound and simple as it usually is with God, I just felt him tell me: “Tiffany, I made you with no mistake I have made you the way that you are. I love you.”

Yep, I’m a loser. I really am..but He loves me. Hear that? He friggin, freckin, fracking loves me. My God is mad dope.